I Wish You Knew the Things I Couldn't Say

I wish you knew the things I couldn't say.

I tried many times to speak them but the words never found release.

I just could never discover the right sounds that spoke my mind.

Anyway, trembling lips betray such fragile expression.

Then, I would have told you how I thought my world depended on you.

Then, I would have handed over the secret I never shared with another.

Then, I would have pulled my very being from within

And placed it before you so that you knew I had nothing to hide.

But never did a place or time permit such complete disclosure.

But, even if it had, we both played the game of assumption.

But, we each had a role to act and our parts required no such truths.

Instead, we held our common ground and casually made our way.

Now, I don't believe in fairy tales and happy endings for silly dreams.

Now, I realize that time, once passed, never returns.

Now, I see tomorrow does arrive with swift, unrelenting precision.

And you were, to me, but a shimmering mirage.

I wish you knew the things I couldn't say.

Then, you may have lingered with me.

But, I blame myself for your hastened flight.

Now, I rely on you no longer.