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Sunday, May 19, 2013
The Life of a Real Man: Just Another Vainglorious, Shriveled Fig
"A Man In His Life"
by Yehuda Amichai
A man doesn't have time in his life
to have time for everything.
He doesn't have seasons enough to have
a season for every purpose. Ecclesiastes
Was wrong about that.
A man needs to love and to hate at the same moment,
to laugh and cry with the same eyes,
with the same hands to throw stones and to gather them,
to make love in war and war in love.
And to hate and forgive and remember and forget,
to arrange and confuse, to eat and to digest
what history
takes years and years to do.
A man doesn't have time.
When he loses he seeks, when he finds
he forgets, when he forgets he loves, when he loves
he begins to forget.
And his soul is seasoned, his soul
is very professional.
Only his body remains forever
an amateur. It tries and it misses,
gets muddled, doesn't learn a thing,
drunk and blind in its pleasures
and its pains.
He will die as figs die in autumn,
Shriveled and full of himself and sweet,
the leaves growing dry on the ground,
the bare branches pointing to the place
where there's time for everything.
Men never have the time to do all they want to do, or, for that matter, they never have the time to do all they need to do. As Yehuda Amichai observes, men can't possibly devote a full season to all of their endeavors. The rapid, never-ending "turning" of life barely allows days or even hours for many of their most cherished activities.
Maybe Ecclesiastes should more accurately state: "To every thing there is a moment, and a little time to every purpose under the heaven."
Amichai understands that unless men, as foible humans, accept the "ups and downs" of life and express their true reactive emotions as these things happen, they miss the opportunity to realize the most meaningful experiences of their own times.
In reality, most men are not graced with a generous allotment of time to "digest" and retrace their own existence. In short, they are too busy living and dealing with the next new challenge to devote extra time to good reasoning. Many find complimentary mid-life adjustment very difficult; some find it impossible.
And, Amichai contends loss and ambition and love serve to muddy the memory. Oh yes -- the soul becomes "seasoned" with its unique experience and emotion; however, the body ages and becomes "drunk and blind in its pleasures and its pains." Time does not allow the rapidly aging body to exercise its maximum soulful potential. Stumbles are inevitable as men "live" their roles.
The passage of time effectively traps older, seasoned "souls" in their "muddled" and progressively amateurish bodies. This seems like such a dreadful fate for those men who have gained wisdom and purpose. How many wise minds have lamented mistakes and said "If I could only go back and relive my life knowing what I know now"? Yet, those are the common workings of "A Man In His Life."
"He will die as figs die in autumn,
Shriveled and full of himself and sweet,
the leaves growing dry on the ground,
the bare branches pointing to the place
where there's time for everything."
The imagery in the last stanza speaks for itself. Finality is bittersweet for the person who has dutifully raced through his earthly existence. He has become "shriveled" but still maintains a self-proclaimed "fullness" and "sweetness" until his fruit becomes another morsel of the final harvest. the death to which he and all men must ultimately succumb.
Still, as "A Man and His Life" draws to a close, Amichai underscores his theme of promise and resurrection with the image of "the bare branches pointing to the place where there's time for everything."
My Brief Take
From the time we are young adults, we men are flooded with conflicting emotions, drives, and expectations. We must learn to fight and to love while living with some semblance of civility and proper decorum. To be both Superman and Jesus is impossible, and while most of us desire to do our best to emulate perfection, we are doomed to fall woefully short of our own expectations and the expectations that many others set for us.
Let's face it. We can love someone and yet feel serious attraction to someone else. We can hate someone and at the same time have such respect for them that it seems that we actually like them. In our man's life, we quickly learn that it is simpler sometimes to not question the turmoil of our inner world too much. We just don't have the time or the innate ability to be a human Gentle Ben.
Given the restraints of time, we men often make decisions without considering all the requirements of right and wrong. We decide to "live in the moment" and move ahead, but later we must deal with the consequences of our actions. By doing this, some of us unfortunately get trapped in a vicious cycle, a whirlpool we cannot escape.
All good-hearted men handle many conflicts in their time. They consistently succeed and fail, and most don't find time to adjust. Amichai reminds us that though we men are often "full of ourselves," we are also pawns of fate. I believe he is saying that we must accept our lives and our imperfections as we attempt to discover whatever "sweeetness" we were meant to add to the world -- at least until the time when the branches are bare and the autumn leaves begin to fall.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
The Future
Future Dreams
As the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams,
Almost always, the creative dedicated minority has made the world better
By using nonviolence, the weapon of the strong.
Their strength does not come from physical capacity but from indomitable will
And action, which may not always bring success, but must taken to achieve a taste
Of happiness in this world of imperfection.
The weak become stronger after they find failure is assured by trying to please everyone,
So they must proceed to move ahead and accept their errors as true portals of discovery,
Heaven-born things that fly to their native seat.
To be and to be accepted as unique means unreasonable people must fight the rigid globe
With imagination more important than knowledge and never take their eyes off the goal
Of living a life they examine to the fullest.
Nothing great in the world has been accomplished without passion and considerable struggle,
And the most wise remember that all great successes and failures are never final.
The journey is the just reward.
By Frank R. Thompson
Thanks to George Bernard Shaw, Roger Babson, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Albert Einstein, Henry Ford, Georg Hegel, Socrates, Marcus Aurelius Antoninus, Martin Luther King, Jr., Mahatma Gandhi, James Joyce, Eleanor Roosevelt, Bill Cosby, Benjamin Disraeli, Chinese Proverbs.
- "People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within." --Elizabeth Kubler Ross
Monday, June 14, 2010
A Love Poem, I Think
Innocence of Being
The energy of love sustains
The life force or our being
As a form free of creation or destruction.
At its core lay the energy of innocence
Whose wants and desires and mysteries
Project degrees of our self perception.
Others arouse this innocence
Setting careless flames to our self perception
By holding mirrors of scrutiny too close.
So we walk fire with self and simply react
To the disharmony inherent in our disease,
And we believe nothing is lost and nothing is gained.
Accepting the physical nature of all humans
As flesh, muscles, bone, and tissue,
We lose unconsciousness to grasp a love of fleeting reality.
We deny the trinity of love in frantic, convulsive action
Instead of total absorption in the not-I
Of one beyond the separation of individual identity.
But, again, the Promethean flame rises steadily from within
The whole-E spirit formed in darkness before mentality.
And the everliving energy of love shields the core of innocence.
Physically renewed, we remain grounded as pilgrims on Mother Earth
Yet prone to search for the Home of perpetual love
Until the pendulum stills and an unrealized virgin energy answers.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Proud In Appalachia
Call me Scotch, Irish, English, Huguenot, Native American, Melungeon, African American or European
And know me as a proud Appalachian:
Not as a hillbilly, not as a redneck and not as a cracker.
In truth, even if my pockets are light, my cultural heritage is among the richest in the land.
I am known for neighborliness, humility, sense of humor and modesty,
I, as an Appalachian, believe in a real and functioning society, Not in a world that would have me put on airs and display them in public Or boast about getting above my common rural raising.
Instead, I prefer to be a leveler who acknowledges universal friendship.
I often learn my lesson through trial and error given the room to experience failures.
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
The Missing Piece
You can't force the last jigsaw piece of your perfect world into mine
Unless you want to distort the puzzle and tear its fragile image.
Leave the missing piece incomplete, a jagged reminder of distressed times.
My inferior humanity serves as a playground for your insults and tattle tales
As you swing and slide and make merry on the go around of each spin.
Then, you laugh aloud when the flesh from my knee drips ruddy upon the ground.
Your best offense is to defense my every motion of hopeful recovery.
My vast, unpardonable past resides on the soured apex of your tortuous tongue
Where it easily intrudes into every crevice of present fortune.
Playing foolish or being the buffoon requires the same witless mind.
Walking onto the stages of incongruity and conflict, I fall victim to all ruses,
Thus, evoking howls of delight from those ravenous for such foible diversion.
Yet, without the flaw of that left incomplete, perceived completion would be impossible:
The better never bested; the unattainable never attained; the unimaginable never imagined.
In truth, the paradox of perfection is that the only perfect state is imperfection.
Leave the puzzle of my life unfinished and in plain sight for others to behold at will.
The blemished product adds fairness to the industry of its making and its presentation.
The missing piece, lost in process, can never be duplicated and added by the less sincere.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
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Monday, August 31, 2009
The Human Touch
The Human Touch
Your place in my heart is not always better than the touch of your hand.
Emotions do not embrace and caress the flesh that enfolds worlds of desire.
Yet, we settle for soft ripples of remembrance and distant communication
Because even innocent contact implores a response and realizes the romance.
The touch rushes the blood of love through the skin as it escapes the pores
And makes apparent the heart's feeble weakness for courage of expression.
Like quicksilver, tactile electricity demands an immediate response
And its ruddy expression paints instant recognition of the nervous solicitude.
In quick manner, the heart stops to await helplessly a return of warm consideration
As, meanwhile, the flesh courteously presses its rash convergence for signs of limitation.
Anticipation steers the mystery of pawing intentions and inevitable reaction
As fingertips strive to measure degrees of inner thoughts and emotions.
Soon the novelty turns to a mechanical grip or a spiritual enclosure.
The curious hand begins to calm the impatient, longing heart
And to create an indelible memory as it feeds the relentless brain
The simple delicacy of the intimate human touch.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Innocence
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Poetry of the Day
Just a Foolish Dream
If I saw you laughing and running into my arms,
No moment of my life could match my treasure.
Words and deeds and promises would evaporate
In the loving embrace of such a deliverance.
Cold, rusty chains of resistance
Would break clean from old tethers
As we would share a new, silent prayer
For a human bond of strongest devotion.
Free from the pride of self interest,
Free from the ghosts of never-changing history,
Free from the awkward masks of changing standards,
We would delight in the new spirit of mutual respect.
Such an image often opens in my dreams,
A feature in the imaginary theater where fantasies play.
The vivid face, the delightful laugh, the dashing sprint to my heart
All so abruptly interrupted by the broken reel of conscious reality.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wonder Why
Wonder Why
Your wonder trips wires of emotion in your mind
That ignite charges of inexplicable awe
And shower you in jagged slices of cutting doubt
That cripple reason for the brief time being.
Had you presence of mind,
Searing lust for adventure,
Simple stimuli for motivation,
Unquenchable curious nature.
Instead, dilemma bleeds yellow streams of uncertainty
That seep into all order and precise calculation
Until systems shut down by the incredulous agony
Leave a shell of unforgiving, lonely paradox.
Had you proper admiration,
Overwhelming sensation,
Adequate meditation,
Rational skills of query.
You wonder about the lost opportunity.
You wonder about the fork in the road.
You wonder about the twisted turn of fate.
You wonder about the cruel circumstance.
The smile
The kiss
The deal
The luck
Money
Passion
Pretense
Moment
Life
God
Soul
Death
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
How Well You Know Me
How Well You Know Me
You don't know me:
You know the things I do.
You know the words I say.
You know the movements I make.
You know the responses I offer.
And you know the appearances I display.
You don't know me:
You know the things I can't do.
The know the words I can't say.
The know the movements I can't make.
The know the responses I can't offer.
And you know the appearances I can't display.
You don't know me:
You know the things you want me to do.
You know the words you want me to say.
You know the movements you want me to make.
You know the responses you want me to offer.
And you know the appearances you want me to display.
You don't know me:
You imagine the things you never want me to do.
You imagine the words you never want me to say.
You imagine the movements you never want me to make.
You imagine the responses you never want me to offer.
And you imagine the appearances you never want me to display.
But, you should know me:
I do some things,
Can't do some things,
Do some things you want,
And imagine some things to do you never want me to imagine to do.
I say some words,
Can't say some words,
Say some words you want,
And imagine some words to say you never want me to imagine to say.
I make some movements,
Can't make some movements,
Make some movements you want,
And imagine to make some movements you never want me to imagine to make.
I offer some responses,
Can't offer some responses,
Offer some response you want,
And imagine to offer some responses you never want me to imagine to offer.
I display some appearances,
Can't display some appearances,
Display some appearances you want,
And imagine to display some appearances you never want me to imagine to display.
The Lost Sinner
Witness the hopeless sinner
A mistake in the making of a soul
Destined to defile the innocent
With cruelty and hate
His hollow eyes perceive all
Without compassion or grace
As his voice angrily swears out
Base deficiencies of his heart
Without conscience or shame
He roams without boundaries
To torment the good
And to violate all sense of order
Deceit and anger are the tools
He manipulates to afflict
Deep gashes of pain
On unsuspecting victims
Masked with false kindness
He dupes his friends
Then assails them with allegations
Of indecency and misconduct
Manipulator, cheater, monster, and abuser-
These are his wicked names
Bound to intimidate others
For his own ill-gotten gains
Witness the hopeless sinner
Damned to an eternity
Of repeated offense after offense
Just to dismally survive
Monday, July 6, 2009
I See Only Black and White
I See Only Black and White
I see only black and white.
No spectrum of light
Illuminates a technicolor world.
Aquamarine, fuchsia, sapphire, saffron:
All are pigments without representation
In my crayola world box of two colors.
All colors absorb light as dark black
As all colors reflect in pure white
To the perception of my receiving eyes.
The blackness of authority and power,
The whiteness of innocence and purity
Present no warm or cool shades of the spectrum.
Without hue or chroma distinction
Saturating artificial or natural light,
I navigate with thoughts of simple direct contrasts.
All people, all thought, all relations
Are concepts of black and white,
No matter their complexity.
Choices, preferences, and friendships,
I clearly see two distinctions
Of difference in their form.
Right or wrong, good or bad,
Friend or foe, ugly or beautiful
Become lucid, permanent black and white fixtures.
With no colors to stir emotions
And no gray areas to cloud interpretation,
I rest assured in my total absorption and absolute reflection.
No alluring hues of potential disguise
Illuminate any regret or compromise
In my perfect interpretation.
I see only black and white
While your color-filled eyes
Blind you with ubiquitous variety.
On Being a Terrible Father
On Being A Terrible Father
So I disgust you?
Pencil my name on paper
And erase it until you rub
It into shreds of trash
With no letters
No meaning
No memory
So I disgust you?
Get your friends on the phone
And relate your horror
In graphic detail
Of terrible treatment
Terrible trauma
Terrible existence
So I disgust you?
Gather an angry crowd
Pump them with rhetoric
Arm them with revenge
And strike out in anger
Strike bone
Strike heart
So I disgust you?
Isolate my existence
Torture me into retribution
With silence and tension
Until I break apart
Break my belief
Break my understandings
So I disgust you?
Paint me midnight black
Cover over any specks
Of bright redemption
To darken my image
Darken my past
Darken my future
So I disgust you?
Vilify my relationship
With your every word
To inform the world
Of your terrible fortune
And your terrible life
With your terrible father
Friday, June 12, 2009
Did You See Me?
Your vision extends as far as your eyes can see.
You rely on your vision to steer safely
Around the dangerous obstacles and sharp curves
That slow your journey to the next point of view.
I am the menacing figure in the distance.
Your eyes communicate the hazard
To your conditioned brain
And you swerve and speed past me,
Just one more inconvenience in your life.
Your eyes never really saw me,
The "me" inside the looming stance
Of pride and conviction of purpose.
Just eyes, missing hidden dimensions,
And scanning the surface of my intrusion.
I stand alone now on the highway of confrontation
Wishing that you might have atomized me
Into a million tiny fragments of matter
From my hidden insides to reveal the proof
Of your real intent.
The danger of mutual damage in this case
Prevented you from being the innocent witness
Of such real devastation of body and soul.
Yet, oh how sweet it would have been
To have stepped on the gas and taken dead aim.
What right did I have to occupy your eyes
And interrupt your carefree day?
I could have become the ruin of your content
As I exist merely to get in the way
And, somehow, think I matter too.
It's a cold, long walk with only my thoughts
As I tramp my way along the miles alone.
You are probably home now with friends
And resting your limited eyes
To discern how best to judge tomorrow's fears.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
The Hungry World
The Shadow of Indifference
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Everything Breaks
Everything Breaks
Some small and fragile works
Fall victim to strong hands
That violate their rest.
They snap!
And fall in worthless pieces
As they shatter to the ground.
Other common and cheap things
Die quickly from design
That insures they will not last.
They crumble.
And rest in cans of trash
As they await the refuse man.
The strongly formed creations
Pass slowly in good use
That constant strain demands.
They expire.
And lie in honored rest,
As they rust or fade away.
Great wonders of natural design
Cease not before the eyes
That constantly stare in awe.
They disappear.
And satisfy a God
As He changes all born in time.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Only the Lonely Know
A starless night stands bare in an onyx sky
A dim streetlamp glows softly in the airy night
A neglected toothbrush rests alone on cold white sink
A rowboat struggles upon the waves of the open sea
A romantic letter severs ties with "I love you"
A past now gone remains in a pair of empty shoes A liver-spotted hand embraces an old photograph A lover's last goodbye speaks through a ticket torn in half A bright beam seeps though an insignificant crack A shaft of sunlight breaks onto a sylvan path A dark silhouette stands alone on an abandoned beach A lonesome child sits on a swing and drags his feet A portrait stares from a dirty window frame A sheet of music lies silent and never played A distant siren wails in the summer heat A homeless beggar wanders a filthy urban street A hollow stem grows through a broken walk A black cat begins a silent midnight stalk. A glass pane frowns broken teeth in an abandoned home Trembling knees support a weary head left to weep alone A lonely fir tree desperately grasping steep craggy ground A mourning dove on a telephone wire coos lamenting sounds An unstable lover remains beside a mute telephone An evicted family packs up the remnants of their home Loneliness stalks the darkened lives of every soul and heart Waiting for all reluctant victims to play their empty parts












